说不出的感触

我以为，人长得越大 ，
就越会控制自己的思绪 
就越善于隐藏内心的感受
遇到什么挫折，都会以轻轻的微笑，带过
再也没有什么事情 可以让我伤心得立刻想流泪
因为眼泪渗出眼眶前， 往往早已在心里，悄悄的蒸发


而如今， 在这短短的30分钟课堂上， 我发现 我错了
心里竟然，还是会 那么的悲伤，那么的失落
回到家，一边啃着面包，一边落泪
哭到想作呕，吃到好想吐
最后，竟然埋头大哭，
好久没有哭得那么放肆了


去游泳想疏解复杂的情绪，
心想，或许游累了，心便会好些，
遇到班上同学，问他，我是不是失常了，
是不是压力太大，才会像是连续被三个男人甩掉似的。。。那么脆弱


他说， 我是正常的，因为他也很失落，像是被强奸三个月被放出来的感觉
所以 我应该 还是正常的。。。
是“他”在我们心中 占了很重要的位置
所以我们才会不知所措

心中的分量

心里 很沉重
没有想到 他在我心里会有那么大的分量


从小 就不是什么模范生
也被几个老师痛骂过
但 我都以一笑而过的心态面对


我说过 我不大会给自己找麻烦
更不会跟自己过不去
错都错了 骂也骂了
睡个觉 明天还是会一样的笑


成几何时 我把人与物看得那么重
成几何时 我会那么认真对待生活


很奇妙
他就是有办法
让人 睡不好  吃不好 
让心 很失落 很失落
原来 他在我心里 真有那么大的分量

我

我爱好奇    ，至少我知道什么时候该停止
我无理取闹，至少错的时候会去道歉
我很贪玩    ，至少我会看事情的轻重
我 常闯祸   ，至少事后会从中学习，不再犯同样的错
别说我幼稚，我只想好好把握每一刻 
去热爱生命，去体验生活

女人

女人 要懂得察言观色
该道歉的时候道歉
该霸道的时候霸道
该妥协的时候妥协
该放下的时候放下
我不是个聪明的女人
但我不大会给自己找麻烦

我等你

每一次 我在外面忙到乱的时候， 你就突然来。
现在好了， 我即好日子， 静静坐在家等你来， 你又不来。
真不敢想象， 还要跟你过上半辈子。
不要再玩我了。。。大姨妈 =_=''

photos with smile

Go through old photos in de album.

Every photo is smiling, Each photo shows the exact same smile.

But I can still remember the stories behind each picture, 

I can still feel the tears, pains and regrets behind that smile.

Some are those I don't dare to recall. 

Some even give me nightmare when I come to sleep

After all, this is life

At least...I got my moment

At least...I am still smiling

那一年

那一年 
那些汗 那些泪
彷徨 犹豫 疲劳 压力
换来耀眼的成就
但 也是我最不想回忆的一年


而如今 
这种感觉又回来了
我好怕好怕
哭着入睡 哭着冲凉哭着醒来
这世上到底有多少人有本事影响你 那么多

ChOiCe

 

Some choice, you made on your full intention
Some, after deep consideration
Some, simply because you have no other option
The worst thing is, you know there is other option, but you are not allowed to make it

DeAr LiFe

Dear life,

When I said "Can my day get any worst"

It was a rhetorical question, not a challenge.

Nobody Wants

Don't you misinterpret those who always say "Nobody wants"

From the surface, they might seems humble or often assumed as lack of confidence or self esteem. 

Try to see the big picture. If they really lack of confidence, will they have the courage to said it loudly in the crowd "Yeah, nobody wants me loh!"?

It require LOTS of self confidence (too some extent, it's fair enough to say that they must have at least some sense of ARROGANCE that they try to hide behind their so called "HUMBLENESS")

So, next time, whenever you hear people say "Nobody wants me" when they were asked why they are still single, feel free to think twice whether they are really that humble ^_^

It'S aBoUt

It's not about benefits, It's about passion

It's not about expecting a change, It's about making a change

It's not about being the best, It's about improving yourself

It's not about dreaming, It's about achieving your dream

Life was never about destination but has always been about journey