1 sem almost past. it's around 2 months already since i leave club's life.
Haven't fully get used to this kind of life. Once i let go, my burden dissapear... in fact. And there is nothing i suppose to regret after what achieved in my term... got the best vp for my post, club also won the most awards. But what actually annoying me these time...
As i am appointed to become advisor for new term, more or lest, i should help out in their event, at least check on them, attending their meeting, know and understand their current situation, always be there providing mental support, and when it's needed, provide them some advise. It's not because i am better than them. Me heer still learnimg, and this truth won't changes forever. The reason that made me has the right to sit in front of them for the evaluation of Board of Directrors, become a bad person who point out their mistakes is because i used to be as them, i used to go through the situation exactly as what they have now, and that i already passed it.
And basically, they appear to be friendly and respect me... as a friend, as an advisor. But somehow i found that the more i attend their meeting... observing they lead a meeeting, from the 1st time nervous, shy guy to become a firm leader who manage to make decision (of course there are lots of conflic, ,flesh and tears between) in the event he incharge, i realize that they are exacly ahat me and my committess were last time, when we all... strangers are committed in the club as Board of Directors. And i slowly but firmly can say that, they will do just fine without me. Some times , i will observe from a distance, how they work together, how they promote the event, how they react to customers... or conduct a meeting. Then i said to my self... my time is passed. I am not suppose to interupt their decisionmaking style and force mine, or out a limitation on their creativity.
Leo Mission is a tutoring program to orphanage, Zoo Negara is community service to zoo, teking care of environment+the faunas... And in short semester where the time is very pack, they manage to organize both of them, notincluding some other fix events... They even manage to combine it... make the orphans do the community service work together with us. i can see a bright light in them. It's such a creative idea. The purpose for children: to increase their awareness to the wild life and teach them how to love other beings instead of complaining on their fate as an orphan. They can also learn human skills that can't be learnt in class room through the service. Good Job.
Some times, my ego do appear, sense to be acknowledge, sense to be announce and still miss my sit in front... at the middle... facing lots of people, but don't i already have it for the whole year? I should i go in front, critisize new terms and tell them what to do? Take overthe authority from them and make adjustment infront of other members? of course not. That will be too childish.
