29 January, 2011
25 January, 2011
The Best Leader
24 January, 2011
sleep with a smile
19 January, 2011
16 January, 2011
@unconditional love@

Since I was an adult and know things,
I found many reasons not to believe in something called "unconditional love"
I believe everything happened for a reason
I believe everything happened because of a reason, or condition, or circumstancess
Even for typical example that people often used to confront me, such as the love of you parents is unconditional, I found it bullshit
They love you with a reason, too.
They love you under 1 condition.
You must be their own child.
Their love won't be the same if you happened to be other people's child.
But then, I grew up
But then, I met this man.
But then I couldn't help my self to be dragged down.
You never know you are capable to be hurt so much by someone but still care for him.
You never know you could bear with someone's attitude to this extent.
You never know you can miss someone so much after what he hurt you with his words and actions.
You never know you can love someone since has nothing, until he has everything, from the day he enter your life, till the day he left.
Dissapear from you eye, dissapear for your room, dissapear from the planet... again!
Perhaps, this is what people called unditiomal love.
Or perhaps, this is only a mind of a young lady who couldn't be reconciled that she can not conquer this man.
I found many reasons not to believe in something called "unconditional love"
I believe everything happened for a reason
I believe everything happened because of a reason, or condition, or circumstancess
Even for typical example that people often used to confront me, such as the love of you parents is unconditional, I found it bullshit
They love you with a reason, too.
They love you under 1 condition.
You must be their own child.
Their love won't be the same if you happened to be other people's child.
But then, I grew up
But then, I met this man.
But then I couldn't help my self to be dragged down.
You never know you are capable to be hurt so much by someone but still care for him.
You never know you could bear with someone's attitude to this extent.
You never know you can miss someone so much after what he hurt you with his words and actions.
You never know you can love someone since has nothing, until he has everything, from the day he enter your life, till the day he left.
Dissapear from you eye, dissapear for your room, dissapear from the planet... again!
Perhaps, this is what people called unditiomal love.
Or perhaps, this is only a mind of a young lady who couldn't be reconciled that she can not conquer this man.
12 January, 2011
stealing time
I love stealing time from busy people.
The more time these people spend time on me,
the more important I feel myself to them.
Gosh, I love being appreciated.
The more time these people spend time on me,
the more important I feel myself to them.
Gosh, I love being appreciated.
@I Love Him@
I love him.
That was never the question.
It's just that I couldn't figure out how to stop making each other desperately, shriekingly, soul-punishingly miserable.
I had wished that I could behaved more like a true lady.
Independent, strong, self- sufficient, A SELF FEEDER.
End up those exactly times I tried so hard to stop letting my man feeding my soul.
And I, tried same hard, stop trying to eat his soul. And this is killing me slowly.
I had wished to be a woman who ask nothing of anybody.
But I can't help feeling lonely and heart sick to be with this person who always dissapearing from my eye, from the room, from the planet.
There is a constant level of closeness that I really need from the person I love.
That was never the question.
It's just that I couldn't figure out how to stop making each other desperately, shriekingly, soul-punishingly miserable.
I had wished that I could behaved more like a true lady.
Independent, strong, self- sufficient, A SELF FEEDER.
End up those exactly times I tried so hard to stop letting my man feeding my soul.
And I, tried same hard, stop trying to eat his soul. And this is killing me slowly.
I had wished to be a woman who ask nothing of anybody.
But I can't help feeling lonely and heart sick to be with this person who always dissapearing from my eye, from the room, from the planet.
There is a constant level of closeness that I really need from the person I love.
romantic
Some husbands hold their wives' hands in the mall. Because if he leaves her hand, she will go shopping. It looks romantic but it's actually economic
11 January, 2011
highest level
In 1st year, you learn to set up a business
(you start to have an ambition to have a big corporation)
In 2nd year, you learn to maximize profit
(you start to think out marketing strategies to manipulate people, you even ever try to figure out how to escape from tax)
And now, in your final year, you learn about corporate social responsibility
(now, you are not focus only on making money for your current profit, but to protect your environment and concern about your society so that your future generation, is able to sustain and survive)
At the end, it's all come back to ethic, moral, peace, and love.
I hope this is the highest level of making money.
I hope this is not just a naive dream to achieve.
(you start to have an ambition to have a big corporation)
In 2nd year, you learn to maximize profit
(you start to think out marketing strategies to manipulate people, you even ever try to figure out how to escape from tax)
And now, in your final year, you learn about corporate social responsibility
(now, you are not focus only on making money for your current profit, but to protect your environment and concern about your society so that your future generation, is able to sustain and survive)
At the end, it's all come back to ethic, moral, peace, and love.
I hope this is the highest level of making money.
I hope this is not just a naive dream to achieve.
09 January, 2011
New York

People said that you are empire state of mind
People said if you can make it there you can make it anywhere
For me you are so close yet so far
You are so close that;
I see your building from almost every movie I watched
I understand your people from every tv series I seen
I know alot about your culture from every website and books and newspaper and magazine
I exposed to your states and museum from lots of friends who happened to study there
It makes me feel to have certain bonding, to have certain connection to you
You are so familiar yet so strange
Can't wait to explore you
Can't wait to challange you
I believe I can make it
I will prove to myself that I can make it there
New York, wait for me
I will be there...
SOON
To have my own eat pray love journey
To have my own American Dream
People said if you can make it there you can make it anywhere
For me you are so close yet so far
You are so close that;
I see your building from almost every movie I watched
I understand your people from every tv series I seen
I know alot about your culture from every website and books and newspaper and magazine
I exposed to your states and museum from lots of friends who happened to study there
It makes me feel to have certain bonding, to have certain connection to you
You are so familiar yet so strange
Can't wait to explore you
Can't wait to challange you
I believe I can make it
I will prove to myself that I can make it there
New York, wait for me
I will be there...
SOON
To have my own eat pray love journey
To have my own American Dream
@sometimes@
sometimes I think we are friends
sometimes I feel we are more than friends
sometimes I even feel that we are not better than strangers
so what are we
sometimes I feel we are more than friends
sometimes I even feel that we are not better than strangers
so what are we
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