If I should compare it
I would like to use diamond
It's valuable
Everyone love it
BUT
It don't have second price once it sold out!
That is what makes it even valuable.
When it being transfered to other's people hand, to the next owner
It might still look georgeous
It might still seem lovely
People might still love it adore it and enjoy it
But the label is there
There is no second price
It's a second hand now
So now tell me if it shouldn't be protect carfefully?
Tell me if you should admit it to your spouse.
30 November, 2010
28 November, 2010
BEAUTIFUL
some people may judge it from one's external appearance
others may perceive it from one's inner beauty
but for me,
WHEN YOU POWERFUL, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!
others may perceive it from one's inner beauty
but for me,
WHEN YOU POWERFUL, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!
I APPRECIATE
I appreciate that I feel jealous- It indicates that I have the willingness to improve.
I appreciate that I feel anger- It means I am still capable to defend my right.
I appreciate that I feel hatred- It helps me to differ a friend and an ass.
(Steffi Caroline, 2010)
I appreciate that I feel anger- It means I am still capable to defend my right.
I appreciate that I feel hatred- It helps me to differ a friend and an ass.
(Steffi Caroline, 2010)
25 November, 2010
dance in the rain
Live is not about waiting for the storm to pass
It's learning to dance in the rain
It's learning to dance in the rain
20 November, 2010
I WISH, I BELIEVE
After meeting him in person the other day
I wish one day
I will be like people like him
Every single word he said
Will motivate others
Every single decision he made
Will change people's life
Every single action he took
Will effect the whole society
I wish
I believe
I LIKE IT
I like it when I am wearing towel to walk from my room to public washroom,
people start wear their towel to bath too.
I like it when I on my phone MP3 and play it on the shower,
next thing I found people start play their favorite songs in washing area too.
I like it when I start a topic over a dinner or tea time,
people feel excited and start discussing it.
I like it when I tell people my favorite food or drink,
people feel curious and whole table ordering the same thing.
I like it when I constantly use a quote, term or word,
people start calling each other with that word.
When every single word of mine can embrace or distroy some one...
I like it.
Oh, I like it!
people start wear their towel to bath too.
I like it when I on my phone MP3 and play it on the shower,
next thing I found people start play their favorite songs in washing area too.
I like it when I start a topic over a dinner or tea time,
people feel excited and start discussing it.
I like it when I tell people my favorite food or drink,
people feel curious and whole table ordering the same thing.
I like it when I constantly use a quote, term or word,
people start calling each other with that word.
When every single word of mine can embrace or distroy some one...
I like it.
Oh, I like it!
18 November, 2010
Old Couples
I love seeing old couples
They make me realize that someone can actually love you forever
They make me realize that someone can actually love you forever
@distance@
There are 4 stages of ditance between people
1. Public distance: 360cm adn above [stranger]
2. Social distance: 120cm - 360cm [social ocassion]
3. Personal distance: 45cm - 120cm [know each other but not involved in special bounding]
4. Intimate distance: 45cm - 0cm [family, close friends, life parthner]
When stranger breaks into your personal distance, your unconscious mind will feel offended/ insulted. You will just feel uncomfortable and furious.
-Edward Hall
08 November, 2010
@i hate@
I hate a man who give you social, then take away your social.
And only a very powerful man can do that.
And to handle that, strong is not enough.
You have to be powerful. Very powerful to deal with man like that.
And only a very powerful man can do that.
And to handle that, strong is not enough.
You have to be powerful. Very powerful to deal with man like that.
respect
When you were a kid, you being urged by your parents to respect others.
When you grow up someone told you that respect is earnt, not demanded.
Then you learnt that you can actually earn respect from others by showing the consequences to those who didn't show you theur respect.
Maybe one day, you will finally realize that it's not about others.
It's about yourself. It's about how you take them.
When you grow up someone told you that respect is earnt, not demanded.
Then you learnt that you can actually earn respect from others by showing the consequences to those who didn't show you theur respect.
Maybe one day, you will finally realize that it's not about others.
It's about yourself. It's about how you take them.
good real fake
some people are GOOD
some people are REAL
some peopole are fake
and some people are real goood at being fake
some people are REAL
some peopole are fake
and some people are real goood at being fake
07 November, 2010
individual assignment
I always enjoy doing individual assignment. You decide the meeting time with yourself, you set yourself the progress, you argue with yourself about what is right and wrong, and the best part is you can always get unbias opinions and feedbacks from people because they have nothing to do with your asignment ^_^
23 October, 2010
Work and Travel
Get known about work and travel stuff from Thin Chew. Really interested for de programme. But, I know there might be some problem to convince them. It needs effort to gain their trust and permission. Develop new skills, explore to new things, visit new places, know new people. There will be a great experience before I enter labor market after I graduate. I don't believe in length of life. I believe in depth of life. I believe there is something more valuable than rushing work works and earn couple K of $$. Experience that priceless.
In this 20 years, I have make many decision big decision before consult or even get the permission from my parents. Some... they don't even knw till this moment. It's not the thing I am very proud of... but it won't make me regret either.
So... just wish I can make it. My American Dream.
I believe I can settle down this too. I will be the woman who in charge of my life.
In this 20 years, I have make many decision big decision before consult or even get the permission from my parents. Some... they don't even knw till this moment. It's not the thing I am very proud of... but it won't make me regret either.
So... just wish I can make it. My American Dream.
I believe I can settle down this too. I will be the woman who in charge of my life.
22 October, 2010
bUrN tHe BrIdGe
When we are leaving and even we know that everything we left behind i no longer our business but we still do our best, we actually earned people' respect. We will be missed and there is always a way back, because we don't burn our bridge.
2 types
There are two types of people.
The 1st type are those who make decision and of course, when something goes wrong, they will take the blame.
The 2nd type are those who sit, see, and wait until someone make a decision when it seems so hard to decide what should be done. So that when thing goes wrong, they won't feel hesitate or even feel guilty to confront the decision maker.
I used to be the 1st type of people.
Everytime I recall it,
Maybe it didn't end up perfectly,
Maybe I left regrets behind.
But it makes me feel good inside to take that risk and learn from mistake.
I used to be the 2nd type of people.
Everytime I recall it,
I feel desperately ashamed of myself.
It makes me feel terribly awful.
It leaves me with a deep guilt.
And now,
at middle of the night, in middle of nowhere,
A perfect time to recall the memories,
How have I learnt, how have I failed,
What have I achieved, What have I missed,
Why did I being appreciate, Why did I being confront.
Some make me close my eyes smiling
The others stay like a very deep scar
What the hell,
I still feel grateful because I realize these before it's too late,
I still thankful for knowing what should I do to cut down the bad memory that possibly happen,
when I recall again in night like this somewhen in the future.
Steffi Caroline
22 October 2010
03:31 AM
12 October, 2010
Ever Green
Ok, Im doing a business plan on recycling industry. We are expected to come out with atleast 2 competitors to do positioning and analyzing. I asked my group member to search it online. She told me "Stef, I got it" "What's de name?" She said"Ever green" I asked "and what company is that?" She said"chemical company"
I like WTH? Does it supposed to be Never Green ???
baby die
There are only plenty of students remain this semester in our final year so we get used to share and discuss about our final project with other group and help to point out each others' mistake. I asked my friend who doing child care centre"Do you have any legal protection for your company concerning who will be responsible in the case if there is baby die in your care centre?"
He looked at me inncently "Why the baby has to die?"
(do I too sarcastic or abit realistic? =_=)
10 October, 2010
bad things
1st time you heard a joke, it sounds funny. Few times hearing it, it might sounds lame.
1st time you read a story, it seems touching. Few times reading it, it doesn't make any sense.
Appreciate bad things when they happen. If only good things keep happening to you, you won't know how to cherish them when they come.
06 October, 2010
03 October, 2010
@endure@
Sometimes, people will just feel better when they put the blames on others when incident happens, especially when they are having bad time. So if they happened to be people you care and you can still endure with that, let them! It's not always about who right or who wrong.
28 September, 2010
perfect girl
Am I faithful, am I strongAm i good enough to belong
In your reverie a perfect girl
Your vision of romance is cruel and all along I played the fool
All your expectations bury me
Don't worry you will find the answer if you let it go
Give yourself some time to falter
But don't forgo knowing that you're loved no matter what
And everything will come around in time.
I own my insecurities I try to own my destiny
That I can make or break it if I choose
But you take my words and twist them 'round
'till I'm the one who brings you down
You need everybody with you on your side
Know that I am here for you but I hope in time
You'll find yourself alright alone
You'll find yourself with open arms
You'll find yourself, you'll find yourself in time
The riot in my heart decideds to keep me open and alive
I have to take myself away from you
'cause I can't compete I can't deny there's nothing that I didn't try
How did I go wrong in loving you
22 August, 2010
woman behind
Your mother told you there is a woman behind every successful man.
Your mother didn't tell you women only choose successful men to stand behind.
Your mother didn't tell you women only choose successful men to stand behind.
CAPITAL LETTER
I get annoyed with animations that appear automatically once I type down the letter which match with the key pad shrt cut. So I chat with my frnd with capital letter. Then he suddenly replied "WHY USE CAPITAL LETTER!"
This is interesting. I never realize that "CAPITAL" letter and "!" could be interpret as a kind f emotion too. People might assumed that you are angry ^_^
This is interesting. I never realize that "CAPITAL" letter and "!" could be interpret as a kind f emotion too. People might assumed that you are angry ^_^
19 August, 2010
appreciate
During exam period, appreciate every single second left to study, eppreciate every sigle minute left to sleep. Tell myself, this is only for few days. After exam, I can leep as much as I want. Now having that break. But can't feel that kind of atifaction and appreciation when going to sleep anymore. Is there something wrong with me or human being only appreciate joy when they are under pressure?
10 August, 2010
pain, smile
There must be someone who able to see pain in your eyes when everyone else believes the smile on your face
Be With
Be with those who help you see the value in yourself, not with those who make you look down on yourself.
study law
An foreign immigration officer told my lecturer "Malaysian and Singaporean kids are not easy. They are very conscious towards legal constitution." My lecturer asked him why he said so, he said that everytime he asked them what they are doing there, they will answer "study law"
PS: STUDY LOH...
PS: STUDY LOH...
study working
Visited by 2 seniors from US and a senior who already working. I told them
"study not good, got lots of test". He told me
"Atleast u are given few weeks to study. When you work, your boss just throw you a file and said 'I want it by tomorrow'! "
"study not good, got lots of test". He told me
"Atleast u are given few weeks to study. When you work, your boss just throw you a file and said 'I want it by tomorrow'! "
good enough
Feels bad for being not good enough.
But how to measure good is good and enough is enough?
But how to measure good is good and enough is enough?
Under Control
When somebody suddenly pop up out of nowhere, comes and tells you "Everything is under control", trust me, something has gone wrong...
fair
On graduation ceremony's speech, the chairman said "When you get out there, you'll discover that life isn't fair. But what yu can do is be fair to people around you. Be fair to your community."
I asked my self. "Will I keep myself to be fair even when I am being pushed so hard by life?" no no can't do...
I asked my self. "Will I keep myself to be fair even when I am being pushed so hard by life?" no no can't do...
Money , Women
Saw this from a friend's status. He wrote:
My dad asked me what I aimed in life. I answered MONEY and WOMEN, he stared at me in anger and slap me on face. Then I answer CAREER and LOVE, he gave me a compliment looj and rub my hair. What's the difference???
This really make me LOL !!!
My dad asked me what I aimed in life. I answered MONEY and WOMEN, he stared at me in anger and slap me on face. Then I answer CAREER and LOVE, he gave me a compliment looj and rub my hair. What's the difference???
This really make me LOL !!!
Ethic Hacking
My friend wonder whether or not to take a subject called "etchic hacking" for RM 5000++ I am wondering how can people put "ethic" and "hacking" together
"I think"
On presentation, my friend can hardly calm her nerves down and started to present. She said "I think..." but the lecturer cut her word impatiently "Don't think, just say!"
For the rest of the presentation, none of us dare to mention the word "I think".
The other time that lecturer told us "I don't want you all to blindly believe on the theories. Tell me what you think. It shows me that you really understand"
Our conclusion is, she was having PERIOD at that time T.T
For the rest of the presentation, none of us dare to mention the word "I think".
The other time that lecturer told us "I don't want you all to blindly believe on the theories. Tell me what you think. It shows me that you really understand"
Our conclusion is, she was having PERIOD at that time T.T
End
End of another term. Everybody has different feeling. People come and leave. people love and hate. But at the end of the day, you'll surprise to realize that the only thing you remember about them is the moment you all gone through obstacles together.
hapiness
Sometimes, happiness can be very simple.
Finished your coffee, then rush for your morning class, the discover the light smell of coffee once you enter the room when you coming back home is a happiness too.
Finished your coffee, then rush for your morning class, the discover the light smell of coffee once you enter the room when you coming back home is a happiness too.
uniform
One thing about high school uniform is,
after you graduated and years oassed by... you see someone wearing it somewhere, you will always "tought" that he/ she is somebody you know. In fact, it is only the sense of belonging.
after you graduated and years oassed by... you see someone wearing it somewhere, you will always "tought" that he/ she is somebody you know. In fact, it is only the sense of belonging.
since when
Since when the terms ER, PR, VP, OC, VOC, PM, CC, BD, LM, GLA, LTC, OLE sounds so strange to me? Is that indicates that I should let go, and Life Should Go On?
Piece of Advice
My uncle told me "You can fail your test, you can't fail your subject, but don't you ever skip classes. The life experiences that your lecturer share is class is priceless. That i what you actually paying for. That is why people insist to go for cllege no matter how hard it is."
He isn't work in education industry. He builds houses and properties. Yet he realize a thing that never comes to my mind. Feel like don't want to skip class no more. But too bad, it's already study week T_T
He isn't work in education industry. He builds houses and properties. Yet he realize a thing that never comes to my mind. Feel like don't want to skip class no more. But too bad, it's already study week T_T
sixth sense, insane
Sometimes, even when people treat you nicely, you don't feel liking them, because it imply doesn't feel right.
Sometimes, people act like asshole, you don't feel leaving them, because you simply can't detect hatred from them.
Is this sixth sense? Or insane?
Sometimes, people act like asshole, you don't feel leaving them, because you simply can't detect hatred from them.
Is this sixth sense? Or insane?
obey
we tend to "obey" cultural norms without thinking, because to do otherwise would seems unnatural
30 May, 2010
my day
Yesterday... official day is established. I call it "my day"
I don't believe in waiting.
If you hungry, asked people to eat, cook something to eat, or go and bungkus from outside... and not hide yourself at home... wait for people to ask you out. If you don't say, who de hell will know you want to eat???
Same thing as when I feel bored. My living and studying environment which is basically located at "middle of nowhere" stimulate my brain to think out something new. It's not I got nothing to do. I gt... but it's always the same thing, at the same time and same place, with same "different" groups of people. Of course... this is de life.. way do u expect? Although I enjoyed having fun with them, I want something fresh. I demand fr somehting new. ^.^
So I create a day... once a month, Saturday night, nt disturbable, cos I reserved it for myself. After come out from hot shower... on aircond, on de yellow dark light, on the candle and rose flavor aroma therapy oil, play favorite jazz music... and taste my Bailey to the last sip... of course, wear my fancy dress. 1 of my best night ever. Only awake around 12 noon, I LOVE MYSELF ^_^
I don't believe in waiting.
If you hungry, asked people to eat, cook something to eat, or go and bungkus from outside... and not hide yourself at home... wait for people to ask you out. If you don't say, who de hell will know you want to eat???
Same thing as when I feel bored. My living and studying environment which is basically located at "middle of nowhere" stimulate my brain to think out something new. It's not I got nothing to do. I gt... but it's always the same thing, at the same time and same place, with same "different" groups of people. Of course... this is de life.. way do u expect? Although I enjoyed having fun with them, I want something fresh. I demand fr somehting new. ^.^
So I create a day... once a month, Saturday night, nt disturbable, cos I reserved it for myself. After come out from hot shower... on aircond, on de yellow dark light, on the candle and rose flavor aroma therapy oil, play favorite jazz music... and taste my Bailey to the last sip... of course, wear my fancy dress. 1 of my best night ever. Only awake around 12 noon, I LOVE MYSELF ^_^
03 May, 2010
here I am... again
Here I am... again.
Sit alone in my room, in front of my computer.
Yesterday was officially the end of my semester break. Later on I m going to enroll for the next semester. Then almost 1 more year to go befre I get my degree. To fficially step out to the society.
I am exhausted for the new life. I am bored f my current life. I want to be in fancy Italian restaurant enjoying jazz and wine on Saturday nite. I want to go for art gallery or Orcestra concert at the weekend. Not what I should do now... maybe there is a time for everything. This is not what I can afford by my own now.
But now I am here... alive. That is the best gift and I can work on it. I still have a lot of time to realized these dreams. Maybe one day... someday in the future... when all this dreams become part of my life... a routine... and not just a dream, I will laughing at my self, try to figure out hw simple I am few years back... how easy I can be satisfied. Life isn't dat easy and simple out there.
Rather than just sit and wonder, I must do something. Enrich my self to make my dreams come true. I believe I will have an extraordinary life. It will be fabulous. It will be gorgeous, It will be legendary ^_~
Sit alone in my room, in front of my computer.
Yesterday was officially the end of my semester break. Later on I m going to enroll for the next semester. Then almost 1 more year to go befre I get my degree. To fficially step out to the society.
I am exhausted for the new life. I am bored f my current life. I want to be in fancy Italian restaurant enjoying jazz and wine on Saturday nite. I want to go for art gallery or Orcestra concert at the weekend. Not what I should do now... maybe there is a time for everything. This is not what I can afford by my own now.
But now I am here... alive. That is the best gift and I can work on it. I still have a lot of time to realized these dreams. Maybe one day... someday in the future... when all this dreams become part of my life... a routine... and not just a dream, I will laughing at my self, try to figure out hw simple I am few years back... how easy I can be satisfied. Life isn't dat easy and simple out there.
Rather than just sit and wonder, I must do something. Enrich my self to make my dreams come true. I believe I will have an extraordinary life. It will be fabulous. It will be gorgeous, It will be legendary ^_~
02 May, 2010
It's near
It's officially May now. 3 weeks from now will be my cousin's wedding... and here I am, listening to my favorite jazz by Laura figy. What to prepare? Many cousins frm different countries will be gather. What will be the 1st impression I should give? How will my my entrance? Is it bombastic? or will it be de way who I am?
Ops, tonite dat turtle came by... drop by. I don't understand. He said he came by to drag movies... but he didn't bring his hard disc. So we just sit on the bed... say nothing... d nothing. watch "don't know what" movie.
Gosh, girl, it's not dat you never being alone with a guy. It's not that you never been in relationship. It's nit that you never slept with a guy. What the hack with those nervous breakdown? what the heck with those heart beat?
He keep taking pictures of your stuff, of your room. He keep having opinion and make noise about your stuff... wat the hell... then why come??
He wash the aircond filter for you, he helps you to put on new bed sheet,. Last time he came by, he made you reorganize your drawer, he threw away the so called "nearly explode" battery, whenn u organize ur stuff, you pass the rubbish for him to throw. It just a very simple, normal thing but the the thing is he act like you are his biggest enemy at outside. What the hell? And stupid you feel fine to be treated that way? You should have kick him out your house... Why you feel like nothing wrong with that?
Why did you give him back rub? and why did you lay on his back and doesn't feel strange? You never did that to any friend. Why you feel it's the way it suppose to be when he hold an umbrella to cover you from rain? Aren't you enemy? Why will he call, msn, sms, come ocassionally, unpredictably? He can always find you, you can never reach him. WAKE UP. THIS IS PROBABLY A MISTAKE. DON'T FALL ANY DEEPER.
You will rather cut any of this and end this before you get hurt further. But why you don't even have courage to kick him out of your house? Why you have no enuf courage to forbit him to come? Why you can't even let him being locked outside... don't open the door for him? Don't need to answer me now. You probably need rest. You probably need a bath. and that's what exactly I am going to do now.
It seems like I had ruin my plan to learn Italian song, but I did manage to sing jazz, progress counted ^_^
Ops, tonite dat turtle came by... drop by. I don't understand. He said he came by to drag movies... but he didn't bring his hard disc. So we just sit on the bed... say nothing... d nothing. watch "don't know what" movie.
Gosh, girl, it's not dat you never being alone with a guy. It's not that you never been in relationship. It's nit that you never slept with a guy. What the hack with those nervous breakdown? what the heck with those heart beat?
He keep taking pictures of your stuff, of your room. He keep having opinion and make noise about your stuff... wat the hell... then why come??
He wash the aircond filter for you, he helps you to put on new bed sheet,. Last time he came by, he made you reorganize your drawer, he threw away the so called "nearly explode" battery, whenn u organize ur stuff, you pass the rubbish for him to throw. It just a very simple, normal thing but the the thing is he act like you are his biggest enemy at outside. What the hell? And stupid you feel fine to be treated that way? You should have kick him out your house... Why you feel like nothing wrong with that?
Why did you give him back rub? and why did you lay on his back and doesn't feel strange? You never did that to any friend. Why you feel it's the way it suppose to be when he hold an umbrella to cover you from rain? Aren't you enemy? Why will he call, msn, sms, come ocassionally, unpredictably? He can always find you, you can never reach him. WAKE UP. THIS IS PROBABLY A MISTAKE. DON'T FALL ANY DEEPER.
You will rather cut any of this and end this before you get hurt further. But why you don't even have courage to kick him out of your house? Why you have no enuf courage to forbit him to come? Why you can't even let him being locked outside... don't open the door for him? Don't need to answer me now. You probably need rest. You probably need a bath. and that's what exactly I am going to do now.
It seems like I had ruin my plan to learn Italian song, but I did manage to sing jazz, progress counted ^_^
17 April, 2010
creed
Do you know what's my creed?
I wish that some one...anyone...
will record down all my best moment
a sigle, independent, succesful, charming young executive at New York.
Record down my succesful moment after done a business negosiation, record down my romantic relationship in fancy restaurant, fancy art galery, fancy orchestra concert, record down my active participation as volunteer at hospital once a week, my active contribution as chairman for the foundation I ran, my daily activity ball dancing, yoga, my night life at some fancy jazz bar hanging out with de girls... really close girl friends who success in their own career too. Record down my own moment during my leisure time... have some tea at starbucks, reading some books, surfing in internet, appear at formal occasion to show my support to my fiancee in his campaign... running for US president... All the perfect moment in my best condition. That makes me feel complete as a person, to feel like I have live my life completely. That video will be legendary, and I will be the legend.
But this seems so far away... will it happen?
I wish that some one...anyone...
will record down all my best moment
a sigle, independent, succesful, charming young executive at New York.
Record down my succesful moment after done a business negosiation, record down my romantic relationship in fancy restaurant, fancy art galery, fancy orchestra concert, record down my active participation as volunteer at hospital once a week, my active contribution as chairman for the foundation I ran, my daily activity ball dancing, yoga, my night life at some fancy jazz bar hanging out with de girls... really close girl friends who success in their own career too. Record down my own moment during my leisure time... have some tea at starbucks, reading some books, surfing in internet, appear at formal occasion to show my support to my fiancee in his campaign... running for US president... All the perfect moment in my best condition. That makes me feel complete as a person, to feel like I have live my life completely. That video will be legendary, and I will be the legend.
But this seems so far away... will it happen?
13 February, 2010
follow the rule
Today went to GIANT with my sister, bought my dad his favorite OLD TIWN coffee and milk tea. Then havin dinner at OLD TOWN (so this is how i have my valentine's dinner).
It's a big crowd at Giant due to the CNY's promotion. People buy in large amount so you can imagine the queue. We went to queue at the last 2 rows, express counters which are especially for customers who purchase less than 10 goods.
I saw at the counter beside me, express counter as well... There is a middle age lady pushing a trolley with full of goods, queueing in the line as well. 1st things comes to my head is "poor woman, maybe she don't know how to read the sign board, or she seldom goes to shopping complex so she don't know this commen sense stuff", poor thing, how come nodody tells her?
But then, I start to think from another side... This woman is "clever".
It's a big crowd at Giant due to the CNY's promotion. People buy in large amount so you can imagine the queue. We went to queue at the last 2 rows, express counters which are especially for customers who purchase less than 10 goods.
I saw at the counter beside me, express counter as well... There is a middle age lady pushing a trolley with full of goods, queueing in the line as well. 1st things comes to my head is "poor woman, maybe she don't know how to read the sign board, or she seldom goes to shopping complex so she don't know this commen sense stuff", poor thing, how come nodody tells her?
But then, I start to think from another side... This woman is "clever".
- Her appearance. She is middle age. She dressed like typical aunty so nobody will bother to argue with her during CNY season where everybody should be in good mood and people will tend to close one aye to her "selfish" action as they will think that she "really" don't know that line she standing in is an express counter. Worst come to worst, she just need to act blur when she being asked to shift to other counter.
- Her timing is right; due to peak season, many cashier will on leave and I observe that majority of the cashier is temporary staff with casual wear. So who the hell will care about professionalism, insist the customer to out of the line and re queue at normal counter. High possibility for the cashier to just let her pass, they don't want to get themselves into trouble. They will avoid any possibility to get into arguement with customer(especially aunties). The aunty seems to understand about this point.
- The last thing I can conclude from that thing is she has the "thick face". Not many people has courage to do such things. When others who buy as many stuff as she did queue damn long line, standing like hell, waiting like hell... and others who sacrifice the goods and only buy few goods so they can pay in express counter and get things more efficient... and they still need to wait for this lady... Is that fair?
The world is not fair... never been fair. It's only the matter of "you dare to do or not"? If you don't do, others will do. You can't expect there will be a STRAIGHT people who go and give her discipline or moral lesson... Especially in city, prople tend not to care about other people's business. This makes some people feel free to do whatever they want, since eveybody seems too lazy to mind what she is doing. Mah de, this aunty so PRO.
Another thing is I never tried Giant OLD TOWN before. My sister told me that her housemate post on facebook status that the service over there is terrible and the food is not nice. Then I gave her a lesson, "Don't blindly believe before you tried it and knew it yourself". Then she said "up to you." But, certain judgement does "stick" on my heart even before I enter. The moment we walked in, few waitress greet us at a time"welcome...", well, it's a good start. The drinks ok, food, ok, same as 0ther branches, It doesn't take too long time to get order. Maybe due to my sister's house mate's personal experience. Maybe it is the matter of a particular waiter. From this case, I do learnt 2 things
- FACEBOOK is a very effective, as well as dangerous weapon while not everybody know the idea of "don't blindly follow or believe what people said before you experience it by yourself"
- Waiter is a very important tools for a company, outlet, organization since they are the one who represent the company to deal directly with customer... the guests, the VIP of company. It is difficult to supervise them 24 hours and make sure that there will be zero error... This is the risk...
We can learn things not only from text book... not necessary must be teach by someone. Many things happen around us everyday. You can't learn if you don't even bother to observe them. Learn from life and experience is the best material for me to grow... and to improve.
*INTI bank in around RM400 to my account already. The wages when I worked at Accomodation Office. It not much... but I am happy ^_^, I earned it myself what.
12 February, 2010
@5 STAGES@
There are 5 stages of misery
1. Denial
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance
and I am still stuck at the 4th
I need help urgently
Can't live with this emotion for incoming Chinese New Year
1. Denial
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance
and I am still stuck at the 4th
I need help urgently
Can't live with this emotion for incoming Chinese New Year
@no cured@
I am hopeless
I am no cured
I am terrible
because I am type of person who
WILL TERRIFIED WHEN I COULDN'T TIE DOWN A MAN WHO IS TERRIFIED TO BE TIED DOWN T_T
I am no cured
I am terrible
because I am type of person who
WILL TERRIFIED WHEN I COULDN'T TIE DOWN A MAN WHO IS TERRIFIED TO BE TIED DOWN T_T
@A LOT@
I have a lot of ambitions
- Own a coorporate
- Be a very succesful investor
- Establish a foundation
- Own a casino
- Being politician
- Marry my Mr. Big
- Have a pair of talented, well growthchildren
- Awesome social status
- Amazing social life
- Become most influencing people
- Well equip with various hard and soft skills
But now... my 1st an donly dream is...
to complete my current level succesfully and be able to study abroad to UK to complete my degree... even it's only for 1 year, even it will be so tough, even if there will be more obstacle that I am going to face, even if I need to do part time work, even I will start to adapt to new, strange environment, community, and culture shock.
I don't care. As I said, I don't care if any shit things happen to me. I have no control of them, but I have full control of my self. Yes I might fall down, I might get hurt, my heart might get break. But don't expect me to give up. Gal, believe that you can. Achieve your dream. Be FOCUS, NOT balance!
11 February, 2010
no more
When I see old folks or disable people; no matter in the train, bus station, or any places,I can't control my self but to offer them some helps... even before they don't ask for it, even if they looks healty, even if they don't feel need it, even if there is possibility for them to reject me.
I am a person with a very high ego,
I will feel annoyed if people have opinion againts me
There was a time, when I saw an old fold in a train,
Deep inside my heart, i want to help
But I will worry alot.
What if people think that I am busy body
What if people think that I am fake
What if the old folk reject me in front of people
What if after I stand up, other people are already reach him 1st
so I keep sitting
so I keep waiting
so I keep strungling
so he keep standing
till few stations passed and he went down
I can never forget his back,
The moment he walk away, his shoulders and feet are shaking
because he too tired, because he stand too long
That night I can't sleep
Till now, still feel guilty
There is a phsycological test that proved that the more people in a place, the lower initiative will be taken by people when something happen... because people tend to wait and think that others will do. The responsibility has been shared. I don't know what others (people in that bus) think but i really feel bad.
Since that time, no matter how much I insist of my ego,
Whenever i see old folks, I will rush and offer my seat or other help at the 1st place
No matter if people really tease me by saying I am fake
No matter people say i am a lier
No matter is they really happen to reject my offer
At least I can sleep well at night
I will no longer care for other's perception toward what I did when it comes to this matter
I will no longer to let the idea of "maybe others will do"
I will stand up and be the person who do
I can't change others
but I hope... really hope, by change my own attitude
by start from my self,
people will be awake and aware,
maybe they will feel shame after seeing what I did
maybe they will regret that they are not the one who offer to help at the 1st place
maybe after that day they will be another me, who take initiative to help rather than wait
I am not perfect, I am not an angel.
I just do things that I feel confortable and leave no regret
Thanks old man, he changed my life... without a word, without a lesson, without any interaction...
Somehow, this proved to myself that I am actually have a good nature.
hehe, may with all these positive attitudes that I have, I will be happy.
May all my dream comes true... but too many ambition, why are you so greedy ^.~
lonely
Just came back from company interview in KL, see the environment, spot new target for my foundation again. Lots of manufacturies and multinational company there, as well as residental area.
Today, many friends went back already, and I will stuck here till Sunday. Sounds pathetic... cos there is no way that anyone will still here since they have to spend new year with their family. Whose gonna have dinner with me when people suppose to sit and have dinner in round table with their family? Hehehe, feel like wanna say I will marry anyone who knock my door and accompany me having dinner on Saturday... maybe Mr Maggie+Mr omellette+Mr hot dog... T.T
Nothing to do, so boring... guess what have i done... i change night gown, put on make up, play soft jazz and sit infront of computer... (house mates all back d, dats y i dare to walk around with this attire ^.^) Is this what people called desperate? hehe, actually wanna do out fit rehersal for my cousin's wedding, hekhekhek. So lonely... ego too high dun want to call people to accompany also
Today, many friends went back already, and I will stuck here till Sunday. Sounds pathetic... cos there is no way that anyone will still here since they have to spend new year with their family. Whose gonna have dinner with me when people suppose to sit and have dinner in round table with their family? Hehehe, feel like wanna say I will marry anyone who knock my door and accompany me having dinner on Saturday... maybe Mr Maggie+Mr omellette+Mr hot dog... T.T
Nothing to do, so boring... guess what have i done... i change night gown, put on make up, play soft jazz and sit infront of computer... (house mates all back d, dats y i dare to walk around with this attire ^.^) Is this what people called desperate? hehe, actually wanna do out fit rehersal for my cousin's wedding, hekhekhek. So lonely... ego too high dun want to call people to accompany also
@can not@
can not tell people
can not write in diary
can not post on face book
can not opens up to close friend
now i realize; there is such thing as swallow the pain and smile
I don't one people to know that I, am actually have negative emotion
I don't want people to find in my diary that I, am actually weak
I don't want people on social network to know that I, will also up set
I don't want people who close to me know that I am not as tough as they think
BUT I AM REALLY UPSET
BUT I AM FRUSTRATE
BUT I AM WORRIED
BUT I AM STARTING TO LOSE MY FAITH
I FEEL MY SELF EMPTY
why?
can not write in diary
can not post on face book
can not opens up to close friend
now i realize; there is such thing as swallow the pain and smile
I don't one people to know that I, am actually have negative emotion
I don't want people to find in my diary that I, am actually weak
I don't want people on social network to know that I, will also up set
I don't want people who close to me know that I am not as tough as they think
BUT I AM REALLY UPSET
BUT I AM FRUSTRATE
BUT I AM WORRIED
BUT I AM STARTING TO LOSE MY FAITH
I FEEL MY SELF EMPTY
why?
10 February, 2010
obstacle
There are many obstacles in my life
Whether I like it or not
Accept it or not
I still have to face it
Now, after 1 by 1 obstacle i have cross over
The only thing I can said;
people can do whatever they want to do
people can say whatever they want to say
people can judge based on their perception
things can happen as shit as it could be
things can get worst as terrible as it want
things can attack me and make me fall
but don't expect me to give up and stop trying,
don't expect me stand still and wait for dying
don't expect me to stop learning
I have lots lots of love
I have lots lots of passion
I have lots lots of faith
I have lots lots of friends
I don't care, I don't scare, I don't give up, because I'm a monster ^_^
Whether I like it or not
Accept it or not
I still have to face it
Now, after 1 by 1 obstacle i have cross over
The only thing I can said;
people can do whatever they want to do
people can say whatever they want to say
people can judge based on their perception
things can happen as shit as it could be
things can get worst as terrible as it want
things can attack me and make me fall
but don't expect me to give up and stop trying,
don't expect me stand still and wait for dying
don't expect me to stop learning
I have lots lots of love
I have lots lots of passion
I have lots lots of faith
I have lots lots of friends
I don't care, I don't scare, I don't give up, because I'm a monster ^_^
@safe@
Almost every subject I'm taking, talk about this. Safe investment, safe employment, safe policy ect. Even in Maslow hierarchy that being created long time ago already emphasize the importance of safety. I like to think alot, people will say i think too much, but that is who I am >.<
Kenot sleep, what do i think? When is the last time i feel safe? What is the definition of safe for me? For some people, it could be have enough security guard out side his house, for others they feel safe after install alarm system. For others, they may only feel safe financially, when he become millionaire. I don't want to talk about this materialistic"safe".
What about inner safety? By having faith? It might be, regardless what religion you are, once you havefaith, it can be your guidiance, it can support you spiritually. Then, how bout people? Don't blame me. I can't said that person is my parents or relatives. I left home since i was 12. Maybe i just don't remember how safe i felt while having them around me. But I believe, it must be safe havung them around, because you know that they will never hurt you.
How bout friends or people in my community right now? Shit! Why that stupid turtle pop up on your head again? Yes, I admit, even he is evil, I feel very very safe having him around. He just like can handle everything, can take care of everything, have knowledge of everything. Just feel he is a person that you can count of, you can rely on him. Also don't know why... even you ex who is a boxing coach can't gave you that safety feeling, even your enother ex who happened to be gangster and many people calling him "dai go" and call you"dai sou" can never give you that safe feeling.
Conclusion, he is like a security guard, the kind of person that even if you get lost in the middle of no where, or being kidnaped, as long as he is around, you still can sleep peacefully because you know that he is going to make sure that you are safe and everything will be fine... you just know that. Life is so weird. I am so weird. That turtle is so weird.
09 February, 2010
new thing
just realize new thing
in this course;
i can not too depend on lecturer (no spoon feed)
i can not too depend on notes
i can not too depend on text book
i have to do extra home work
i have to read extra material; more outside book, more business magazine, more newspaper
i have to expose my self to learn various soft skills
or else, i am done...
cheer, i know you can ^.^
in this course;
i can not too depend on lecturer (no spoon feed)
i can not too depend on notes
i can not too depend on text book
i have to do extra home work
i have to read extra material; more outside book, more business magazine, more newspaper
i have to expose my self to learn various soft skills
or else, i am done...
cheer, i know you can ^.^
@invest@
Don't invest on your familyDon't invest on your friend
Don't invest on your relative
Don't invest on your spouse
Do invest on your self
Because he/she will be the only one who stay with you till the end.
Used to read a book, the author said that the best investment that a woman ever do is invest on the right man. That time, when i was younger, everythong she said seems make sense.
But now, after i gone through alot of things, I don't think i agree with her statement. Even though you are lucky enough to invest on a right man; maybe he can give you everything, maybe he treat you like a princess, and maybe he will even become your husband. But can it be said as "succesful investment"? Can you guarantee there will be no recession? maybe tomorrow, maybe next week, maybe next month?
There are lots of insurance; education, retirement program, car, house, you can even have life insurance. But till now, information era, nobody dare to come out with "love insurance". You can't very sure his heart never change. He can just run with another girl tomorrow.
So, better if you put more effort to enrich yourself. Invest more time , more love, more inner and outer value on yourself. Automatically, people will come and invest on you. You become the one who control the market. I would rather being invested than invest on someone ^.^
08 February, 2010
@anicca@
Anicca means inpermanent in pali word (ancient Indian language) Basically, nothing is permanent and i have being trained to accept this fact,
that's why i used to put "this too, will pass" as my personal message in msn.
But still, i am SO SADDDDDDDDDD. My key chain spoiled. Use it for almost 1 year already. Lost it for 2 weeks at KL but still manage to get it back, that's why feel some connection with it. Even it's a simple wood craved key chain...
still feel very saddd... tried to fix it but still kenot. The moment it broke, my tears just felt like bursting out. Duno why but suddenly felt kind of sorrow.
Now i am using an antique gold color key chain made in England. I like it. Old key chain, RIP. I'll keep you till the end...
07 February, 2010
等一个人， 等的好累，就不要再等了
等一个人 等得好累 就不要再等了
没办法看到你上线却不再跟你说话而不难过
于是，我把你从好友列表删除了
没办法看到你的照片在网上出现而不再和你联系而不难过
于是，我把你从朋友列表删除了
没办法想到你时不心痛
于是，我把自己删除了
人生就像一场舞
教会你最初舞步的人却未必能陪你走到散场
这世上最累的是莫过于眼睁睁看着自己的心碎了
还得自己动手把它粘起来
我真的喜欢你
闭上眼，以为我能忘记
但流下的眼泪，却没有骗到自己
我承认
我是一个任性的孩子
我承认
我想用我的全世界来换取一张通往你的世界的入场卷
不过，我的世界， 你不在乎
你的世界， 我被驱涿
回忆，是值的感触的
却也权权是拿来自己与自己寒暄的
时间给所有诺言一个期限
而这个期限则是短短的瞬间
你甘愿，便是永远
若不是， 你也可以说这权权是一个谎言
明明说着看开了 放下了
每次总是不知觉的自己想起了那个给与温暖的人
每每又总是在微笑沉醉时又看到了现实，想到了伤痛
然后， 冷的感觉再也暖和不起来了
如此反复， 心 终于累了
现实总是这样
我曾经醉过
却又最宗醒来
我正在行走
却又找不到方向
黑暗中
偶尔有些伤痕苏醒
偶尔也有小声哭泣
白天， 依然那么故作着坚强
你也许已经早就习惯了心隐隐作痛的时候
也可以置之不理
不知不觉掉下眼泪
也可以习以为常
如果她在你面前笑 并不代表一切都好
如果她在你面前哭 说明她是真的很难过
如果你够感慨 给她安慰
她打从心底感激你
深深地。。。
梦里梦到你，哭了
醒来后发觉现实似乎比梦里的更让人心痛
于是，哭得更凶了。。。
爱一个人，你会记得和他在一起的日子
深爱一个人， 你会记得和他分开后的日子
她 成全了他的自由
他辜负了她的崇拜
如果失去记忆
是不是生活变得更容易
如果不曾忘记
能否让回忆依稀感动依稀
照片存了又删， 删了又存
回忆被拿起又放下
放下又拿起
记性太好的人， 也许都不怎么快乐
也许， 我还是会经常不经意的回忆起你
但是我只是去回忆 而不再挣扎
没办法看到你上线却不再跟你说话而不难过
于是，我把你从好友列表删除了
没办法看到你的照片在网上出现而不再和你联系而不难过
于是，我把你从朋友列表删除了
没办法想到你时不心痛
于是，我把自己删除了
人生就像一场舞
教会你最初舞步的人却未必能陪你走到散场
这世上最累的是莫过于眼睁睁看着自己的心碎了
还得自己动手把它粘起来
我真的喜欢你
闭上眼，以为我能忘记
但流下的眼泪，却没有骗到自己
我承认
我是一个任性的孩子
我承认
我想用我的全世界来换取一张通往你的世界的入场卷
不过，我的世界， 你不在乎
你的世界， 我被驱涿
回忆，是值的感触的
却也权权是拿来自己与自己寒暄的
时间给所有诺言一个期限
而这个期限则是短短的瞬间
你甘愿，便是永远
若不是， 你也可以说这权权是一个谎言
明明说着看开了 放下了
每次总是不知觉的自己想起了那个给与温暖的人
每每又总是在微笑沉醉时又看到了现实，想到了伤痛
然后， 冷的感觉再也暖和不起来了
如此反复， 心 终于累了
现实总是这样
我曾经醉过
却又最宗醒来
我正在行走
却又找不到方向
黑暗中
偶尔有些伤痕苏醒
偶尔也有小声哭泣
白天， 依然那么故作着坚强
你也许已经早就习惯了心隐隐作痛的时候
也可以置之不理
不知不觉掉下眼泪
也可以习以为常
如果她在你面前笑 并不代表一切都好
如果她在你面前哭 说明她是真的很难过
如果你够感慨 给她安慰
她打从心底感激你
深深地。。。
梦里梦到你，哭了
醒来后发觉现实似乎比梦里的更让人心痛
于是，哭得更凶了。。。
爱一个人，你会记得和他在一起的日子
深爱一个人， 你会记得和他分开后的日子
她 成全了他的自由
他辜负了她的崇拜
如果失去记忆
是不是生活变得更容易
如果不曾忘记
能否让回忆依稀感动依稀
照片存了又删， 删了又存
回忆被拿起又放下
放下又拿起
记性太好的人， 也许都不怎么快乐
也许， 我还是会经常不经意的回忆起你
但是我只是去回忆 而不再挣扎
06 February, 2010
@i decided@
I decide to start a new life
I decide not to let anybody or anything to effect my personal life
I decide not to feel down when i am not in the photo album of event attend by new term
I decide to create entertainment for my self
I decide to have fun with my frineds
I decide to learn something new
I decide to challenge my self
I decide to expose my self to new things
I decide not to feel upsset when i was not informed to become faci of particular event around college
I decide to attend latin class
I decide not to lock myself in my room
I decide to accept people request to hang out
I decide not to waste my time waiting
I decide to know new people
I decide I decide I decide
I decide not to let anybody or anything to effect my personal life
I decide not to feel down when i am not in the photo album of event attend by new term
I decide to create entertainment for my self
I decide to have fun with my frineds
I decide to learn something new
I decide to challenge my self
I decide to expose my self to new things
I decide not to feel upsset when i was not informed to become faci of particular event around college
I decide to attend latin class
I decide not to lock myself in my room
I decide to accept people request to hang out
I decide not to waste my time waiting
I decide to know new people
I decide I decide I decide
03 February, 2010
@my friend@
my friend,
i don't like alot of evil things you did to me,
but i do like when;
you never pissed off when i hang up your call
you will just call again, and again, and again
even i hang up and hang up and hang up
then i switch off, and you will still call
again and again and again
and when i on my phone again,
and see how many missed calls report from you
and to see your message, asked me to answer your call
and if i still angry and ignore you
you will walk all the way from the behind block of hostel to my home
without inform me in advance
and just call again and said; "i am infront of your house" or "open the door", then hang up, or keep bang my door...
you don't bother to ask whether i am available
you don't bother to ask whether i am busy
you don't bother to ask whether i am sleeping
you just so confident that my door is always be open for you
my friend, if 1 day when you happen to call and i am accidentally having shower, i wonder how would it be for you, standing in front of my house, starring at the door
my friend, you are so weird, yet bit silly, but so cute, most of the time, you are evil.
I never ever think of can get along or deal with such uncivilized guy...
I though I can never mess with this kind of guy
Till I really happen to meet one, and still manage to "mess" with him and this is the 3rd years since i knew him.
Do I lucky to have this friend? Or it's a punishment for me? Gosh...
i don't like alot of evil things you did to me,
but i do like when;
you never pissed off when i hang up your call
you will just call again, and again, and again
even i hang up and hang up and hang up
then i switch off, and you will still call
again and again and again
and when i on my phone again,
and see how many missed calls report from you
and to see your message, asked me to answer your call
and if i still angry and ignore you
you will walk all the way from the behind block of hostel to my home
without inform me in advance
and just call again and said; "i am infront of your house" or "open the door", then hang up, or keep bang my door...
you don't bother to ask whether i am available
you don't bother to ask whether i am busy
you don't bother to ask whether i am sleeping
you just so confident that my door is always be open for you
my friend, if 1 day when you happen to call and i am accidentally having shower, i wonder how would it be for you, standing in front of my house, starring at the door
my friend, you are so weird, yet bit silly, but so cute, most of the time, you are evil.
I never ever think of can get along or deal with such uncivilized guy...
I though I can never mess with this kind of guy
Till I really happen to meet one, and still manage to "mess" with him and this is the 3rd years since i knew him.
Do I lucky to have this friend? Or it's a punishment for me? Gosh...
02 February, 2010
community
Community meant belonging, sharing common purpose and interests. It meant that each had a duty of care to other, irrespective of capacity. To leave one out of the journey, meant all were diminished. There might have been a sense of impatience when someone was slow to come on the journey, frustation even if it meant substantial deviation, but no one thought of leaving the person behind. You argued, you debated, you pushed, you pulled, but you moved together. You might show disunity behind private doors, but in the light of day, you acted back to back.
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