There are two types of people.
The 1st type are those who make decision and of course, when something goes wrong, they will take the blame.
The 2nd type are those who sit, see, and wait until someone make a decision when it seems so hard to decide what should be done. So that when thing goes wrong, they won't feel hesitate or even feel guilty to confront the decision maker.
I used to be the 1st type of people.
Everytime I recall it,
Maybe it didn't end up perfectly,
Maybe I left regrets behind.
But it makes me feel good inside to take that risk and learn from mistake.
I used to be the 2nd type of people.
Everytime I recall it,
I feel desperately ashamed of myself.
It makes me feel terribly awful.
It leaves me with a deep guilt.
And now,
at middle of the night, in middle of nowhere,
A perfect time to recall the memories,
How have I learnt, how have I failed,
What have I achieved, What have I missed,
Why did I being appreciate, Why did I being confront.
Some make me close my eyes smiling
The others stay like a very deep scar
What the hell,
I still feel grateful because I realize these before it's too late,
I still thankful for knowing what should I do to cut down the bad memory that possibly happen,
when I recall again in night like this somewhen in the future.
Steffi Caroline
22 October 2010
03:31 AM
