"Each time I see a friend success, a very small part of me is dying." Seen this some where. Well said I would say... to be honest.
It has been forever for me, dreaming to study abroad as university student in European country. I missed it.
After got my degree, there is a little wish inside me to at least spend 4 months work and travel around at western country, I missed my chance.
Now, I', struggling to survive in my MBA course... for another 1 year.
Scold me ungrateful... that many people don' even has chance to study abroad. Many don't even has opportunity to be educated. And me, stand here complaining about my life in overseas.
Yesterday, saw a classmate's photo on facebook, what a warm Christmas she had in UK with a British family.
Today, another friend landed safely at Perth, West Australia, saw his photo with a Australian family, Christmas dinner with a kind looking family who happened to be strangers.
My heart... from sour, to bitter... into sorrow... then misery. I burst into tears. I'm glad they enjoy their Christmas. It's just my "eager to win" attitude and my ego... Why I cant get something that is possible for people to have? For that I regret, At this moment, everything seems so unfair to me. I can't accept this! Kinda blame everything! Kinda fed up and Im in a mess now.
But this is not ME if I'll just regret everything and give up my life. I will make this as motivation. I will fight for what I want!!! WATCH ME... and YOU'LL SEE!!! I DAY I WILL. I DEFINITELY WILL GET ANYTHING I WANT!
It has been forever for me, dreaming to study abroad as university student in European country. I missed it.
After got my degree, there is a little wish inside me to at least spend 4 months work and travel around at western country, I missed my chance.
Now, I', struggling to survive in my MBA course... for another 1 year.
Scold me ungrateful... that many people don' even has chance to study abroad. Many don't even has opportunity to be educated. And me, stand here complaining about my life in overseas.
Yesterday, saw a classmate's photo on facebook, what a warm Christmas she had in UK with a British family.
Today, another friend landed safely at Perth, West Australia, saw his photo with a Australian family, Christmas dinner with a kind looking family who happened to be strangers.
My heart... from sour, to bitter... into sorrow... then misery. I burst into tears. I'm glad they enjoy their Christmas. It's just my "eager to win" attitude and my ego... Why I cant get something that is possible for people to have? For that I regret, At this moment, everything seems so unfair to me. I can't accept this! Kinda blame everything! Kinda fed up and Im in a mess now.
But this is not ME if I'll just regret everything and give up my life. I will make this as motivation. I will fight for what I want!!! WATCH ME... and YOU'LL SEE!!! I DAY I WILL. I DEFINITELY WILL GET ANYTHING I WANT!
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