I'm not sure what time i began to have this kind of thinking
Don't know whether it's good or bad
I set a high expectation on my self, and also do de same thing to others.. even i know i am not them and have no right to determine what they should be. Maybe because i care... so i'll take themselves as apart of me, expect them to be what i think best for them. I forgot that they must have reason to do a thing... i don't know them, don't know their story... How can i expect them to be as me as i become my self today because of my own story? Who care about my story?
I love every wonderful thing; SPA, massage, noon tea, yoga I love shopping, i love wine, i love ball. I love flamigo i love waltz I love instrumental, i love to be alone but i hate lonely... I love branded but i tend to buy lots of cheap stuffs that look like a HIGH CLASS stuff. sometimes, even me don't know what really i want, TO BE A REAL ME or TO BE WHAT I EXPECT MYSELF TO BE. maybe that's a type of gemini, never be in stable condition.
I guess now i know why i expect to get a spouse who elder so so so much than me, the one that i feel calm whenever i look into his eyes, no matter how terrible is my emotion. The one with high taste and knowledge that can lead me, teach me alot of thing, teach me how to life, teach me how to love myself, even i know no body will love you if you yourself didn't do it first. The one who can thing further than i am for my own good, the one who has capability and good in socialize, the one who can keep give me feedback to improve instead of afraid of me and pardon me, the one who can control me when i can't control my ego and pride, the one who can take me everywhere (even de place whe never reach before)and can control all kind of situation without let us look like fools.
But can forget about it, at least now, i know it almost impossiblle to find that kind of man in campus... What i can do now is improve and continuing improve my quality so that i'll be a woman that worth to be loved by that kind of man. And about de things I bought and used, i persist that USING A CHEAP STUFF THAT MAKE YOU LOOK ELEGANT IS BETTER THAN YOU LOOK SO CHEAP EVEN YOU WEAR BRANDED ALL OVER YOUR BODY.
I believe that a person's elegance and cheap is a nature thing that can't be cheat, It's comes from inner part, everybody can feel it even they don't know what is it, even though sometimes i'll tend to evaluate somebody i just met from one's gesture, speech & outlook (told u i'm gemini) but what's de point you wear all branded stuff when you even don't know how to respect yourself? So dats not de point you determine one's personality. I love branded stuff, I love cheap stuff. i love to be me, i love to be better me, cos i'm gemini, i've dual personality, but who cares... i'm just a happy me and i love to be me ^_^
Don't know whether it's good or bad
I set a high expectation on my self, and also do de same thing to others.. even i know i am not them and have no right to determine what they should be. Maybe because i care... so i'll take themselves as apart of me, expect them to be what i think best for them. I forgot that they must have reason to do a thing... i don't know them, don't know their story... How can i expect them to be as me as i become my self today because of my own story? Who care about my story?
I love every wonderful thing; SPA, massage, noon tea, yoga I love shopping, i love wine, i love ball. I love flamigo i love waltz I love instrumental, i love to be alone but i hate lonely... I love branded but i tend to buy lots of cheap stuffs that look like a HIGH CLASS stuff. sometimes, even me don't know what really i want, TO BE A REAL ME or TO BE WHAT I EXPECT MYSELF TO BE. maybe that's a type of gemini, never be in stable condition.
I guess now i know why i expect to get a spouse who elder so so so much than me, the one that i feel calm whenever i look into his eyes, no matter how terrible is my emotion. The one with high taste and knowledge that can lead me, teach me alot of thing, teach me how to life, teach me how to love myself, even i know no body will love you if you yourself didn't do it first. The one who can thing further than i am for my own good, the one who has capability and good in socialize, the one who can keep give me feedback to improve instead of afraid of me and pardon me, the one who can control me when i can't control my ego and pride, the one who can take me everywhere (even de place whe never reach before)and can control all kind of situation without let us look like fools.
But can forget about it, at least now, i know it almost impossiblle to find that kind of man in campus... What i can do now is improve and continuing improve my quality so that i'll be a woman that worth to be loved by that kind of man. And about de things I bought and used, i persist that USING A CHEAP STUFF THAT MAKE YOU LOOK ELEGANT IS BETTER THAN YOU LOOK SO CHEAP EVEN YOU WEAR BRANDED ALL OVER YOUR BODY.
I believe that a person's elegance and cheap is a nature thing that can't be cheat, It's comes from inner part, everybody can feel it even they don't know what is it, even though sometimes i'll tend to evaluate somebody i just met from one's gesture, speech & outlook (told u i'm gemini) but what's de point you wear all branded stuff when you even don't know how to respect yourself? So dats not de point you determine one's personality. I love branded stuff, I love cheap stuff. i love to be me, i love to be better me, cos i'm gemini, i've dual personality, but who cares... i'm just a happy me and i love to be me ^_^
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