Wai Quai said "There is 3 main things in INTI life. either you have good result, awesome social life or enough sleep." When you get 1 or 2 of them, you have had to given up another one. She reminds me to the things i given up and achive. I have given up my relationship for my club's achievement, i have given up my result for my awesome social live. I have given up my sleep for my result.
During sharing session, i shared that "for this past 3 days, you have been told to learn from us... the senior, the leader of the leader, the facilitator. Maybe you really can learn something from us. But i want to thank to you all for giving us opportunity to learn from each and everyone of you. You can learn from few of us, but we can see positive value in you (around 100 participant). I can see leadereship, team work, initiative, trust from you guys. good job"
At the 1st i still can barely come over the tension before the camp. I feel so stress. How if i couldn't bring my group member into the situation, how if they are too pasive, how if they don't enjoy the camp? I know that i am going to stress and nervous every time i become facilitator. I can barely sleep at night worry about this. But the reason i take the job over and over again is because i want to try and try again, until i can finally over come the fear, until i manage to handle it my self.
Finally today, i realize something by myself."Don't be a good facilitator because you want others think that you are one. Don't be a good facilitator because you take it as an obligation, a responsibility. Don't be a good facilitator because you afraid that you will be scold by your coach. Be a good facilitator because you really care. Be a good facilitator because you have passionate in doing that. Be a good facilitator because you really feel yourselves fulfill when you can make changes in one's life"
I have given out my time, my effort and my love. I am giving OUT. But why is that i feel like i have even more and more loves come back to me?
